I am hesitant to write this, perhaps it is in the wrong place, or inappropriate. If it is, I apologize, just delete it.
I am a sinner. I am unworthy. I was raised in a Christian church, by my grandmother and was a strong believer as a child. Something happened in my teens, (I was abused), and I stopped believing. Since then I have struggled with my faith. There have been times I believed fully again and times I had lost that faith again. I have felt the strong urge to come back to God, but I do not feel that I can go back to the church that I went to as a child, nor can I go to my wife's church, (she has stopped going as well). I have felt that their teachings were off base for a long time.
I have had dreams and seen signs calling me back. I believe the Father is calling for me to come back. I have started reading the Scriptures and my Bible again. I've begun listening to Bear and PJF discuss the Scriptures and this week I attended my first ever MGM! I have prayed and asked Father Yahweh for forgiveness and expressed my wanting to return to him.
My question is this, even though I have prayed and started to learn about the Torah, I feel that there is something lacking, that I am missing. Is there some formal way that I need to show to my belief and make a covenant to Father Yahweh? Is following the Torah, praying/repenting, and keeping the Sabbath holy, enough?